I've lost it

The title of that could mean so many things, I know.  I've lost it.  So many of you are probably laughing.

I've lost the archives of my blog.  I think I have them saved on an external drive, but right now I don't have a computer at which to upload said backup onto this blog.  I'm going to keep posting and hopefully find the lost archives.  Sounds like a book or something.  There are a TON of good stories on the old blog. 

Ive lost the ability to not blog any more.  I've been laying in bed for like...a year now at night writing blog posts in my head, and then never putting them into words and posting them.  That seems like a waste of some good creative, theraputic energy, and I figure life is way too short to be dealing with that crap. 

I've lost - well, I'm trying to lose - my ability to care so much what everyone else thinks, especially of the opinions I have that may or may not be popular.  I'm not stupid.  I'm not the smartest person on earth and I'm certainly not claiming that, but I have thoughts that are worth sharing.  So, I'm going to share them.

I've lost a bunch of cats.  So I think it's time to tell Orlando and Taz's stories. 

I've lost the ability to have more babies - so the ones I'm so blessed to have are going to have their stories told. 

I've lost a whole bunch of unhappiness.  I have a husband that I just flat out adore, a little home I love, and a life that's pretty damn good.  I'm going to talk about it. 

So, while I've lost a lot of stuff, I've cleaned house to enjoy just about everything else in life.  I'm going to tell you about it, even if you is just me.  And I'm going to lose my mind once in a while when I do so. 

Won't that be fun?!